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[24 Mar 2005|09:21pm] |
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*sigh* i have all kinds of stuff to do today...i've been reading (i needed a break)...i have a powerpoint to finish (well tim wants to animate it, but i dunno if he plans on spending all his time at boomer's w/out me lol) and of course more scholarships lol when will it stop?!?! tomorrow i'm supposed to be having a girls type thing w/linds and mom and hopefully grandma too but i have to work in the morning so i guess linds and mom are going to kee wayden without me =( that sux. i love to go to the beach more than anything but i have to be there to try on cinderella dresses and wigs and get directions to marco for my lil gig tomorrow~oh well, extra money. i finally posted on tim's lj simply because i was speechless to his ocd post but after reading it for the second time, i found the words-short, sweet, to the point kind of thing. i have to check out ginnie's next right after i'm updating. i dont have too much to say anyways other than i stopped by her house yesterday and it was pouring down rain. my god the last time i was at her house it was pouring down rain. what's up with that? hey ginnie, if u read this everytime it rains-u can look for me and tim coming over lol. anyway erin hasn't been talking/calling me lately and i dunno why. i guess because she has a drinking buddy now and doesn't need me. that's the only thing i can really think of. she's really matured too, like seriously. she's actually organized at work and talks for herself now and answers the phone, but sometimes can be a little controlling too, but at least she's doing better~that's good. i haven't heard anything from mike in a while. he's always too busy for me. but i got a voicemail from him yesterday. i guess i drove past him yesterday and he waved and everything and i didn't even notice lol sounds like me. well i guess i'm going to check ginnie's journal and get back to reading...c ya
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[14 Mar 2005|09:59pm] |
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i don't even know how to describe this weekend but ya know i really don't think it was all that bad. friday i went to friday's and tim had a "really bad meal" but after the manager brought it out like 10x hotter, he knows he liked it. saturday, tim took me to laudermilk park to watch the sunset because neither of us have seen one in such a long time. after that, of course we went to the typical hangout of starbucks and then back home (b/c of parental issues GRRR! parents can really ruin everything) but we sat by the fire for a little bit and then came inside and watched goonies. sunday, i went to the beach because it was an awesome day outside and even tho most of the time at the beach, tim didn't talk to me or want to have anything to do w/me while i was in my cute bikini (wierd i know right? lol) umm i enjoyed myself baking in the sun. i put on my own tanning oil though. first time i ever had to do that. even before tim lol. but he eventually talked to me and everything was ok. then we went to his house for pizza which was cool b/c i love his parents~his whole family is just awesome. and then cruised fifth and got an icecream cone. we walked all the way from regina's ice cream store back down to the beach. i also got to feed the ducks. we stopped at the lake behind starbuck's and tim was feeding the ducks and he showed me how to do it and i fed one. it was kinda scary cuz i thought their beaks would be sharp but they were really soft and it felt cool. on the way home, mom had a panic attack (one of many)and told me i'd have to be home in five minutes b/c i was still in my bathing suit. (i guess that's some kind of sin i was never informed of til now, but i did have a cover up on). neways we get home and tok 'n felix are here and tok, for everyone that doesn't know, speaks with a hard to understand accent and very fast while laughing so it makes it hard to understand her so im just laughing and put a big smile on like "yea yea" and tim & i go inside and he says "do u know what she said?" and of course i don't have a clue. "she said that if u were naked underneath that dress u could be home in five minutes." woah guess i need to pay a lil more attention (and pray mom doesn't understand as well). i thought for sure i'd get a lecture but i didn't (there really is some god or guardian angel for me after all) so i changed and ginnie came over. then alex called and tim answered it =(. then mike and bobby stopped by but by then tim was already alseep on my leg b/c i was playing w/his hair. monday, even tho it was my day off i went into work until 5:45 and we were so busy. i worked right uptil the very minute of 5:45 and then just decided to leave b/c i was tired and had stuff to do. so much for a day off. can't wait for spring break. adam's down now so maybe i'll see him like one day, but i'm really looking forward to sum relaxing time and maybe even catching a sunrise on the east coast.
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[08 Mar 2005|07:18pm] |
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i swear i was put on this earth to piss the world off. i make
everyone made without even trying and i don't even know how i do
it or how to stop it even because i don't know what i do. (ah!)
it's so frusturating b/c i can kinda see my parents always
being frusturated @ me because well they're parents but my god
when my friends (and my boyfriend hangs up on me) i'm some
really bad person, but nobody will fess up to why/how i make
them mad, so i can't fix anything i'm doing wrong. Oh no wait,
according to my mom it's all my medicine that i'm on that's
making me be all "emotionally unstable". yeah, if i'm so
emotionally unstable, then who the hell is emotionally stable?
i think i'm pretty stable myself. i suck it up pretty damn good
as much as i get picked on and laughed at, etc. *sigh* i'll
just stop now because this is turning into a whine-fest.
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| No More Lock! |
[03 Mar 2005|07:04pm] |
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yes i know it looks like a random subject, but really i've had this journal since august, wrote in it on occasion like when sumthin' was wrong and the purpose of it was so i could keep in touch w/tiff. well i guess i can take it off now b/c sum1 special wants to see it too. *blows kiss*
neways, scholarship applications are almost done! yes! i can finally sit back and relax soon. omg it'll feel like a ton of weight just got lifted off my shoulders. then maybe i won't be acting all crazy nemore and i can have my head back b/c i seriously think i've lost it these past few days...i've been doing a lot of thinking too and i've felt like crap lately. maybe that's why mom thinks i've been looking sick. i feel like i've completely been a total bitch to ginnie (the sad part is i've had to idea til now, which is really really pathedic) and i've been "scolding" erin for the dumbest stuff (ex. "hold on erin. i'm on the phone.") and just stuff like that i wouldn't usually do makes me wonder why am i now?
mike's been ignoring/avoiding me lately. i guess because i've been bugging him about upholding a promise. oh well. i'm a big girl and i can take care of myself. i have tim to help me too if i need it. and erin volunteered to help also. but i should've never put myself in a situation where i would have to depend on someone else for help. that wasn't a very bright idea.
tim's going to the bahamas for a whole month. =( and i have no idea what to do for that whole month. it includes spring break and probably grad bash too. =( so he'll miss both spring break and he'll have to wait for the stories of what happened at grad bash. i knew it was coming tho. =/ he'll just be happier to see me when he gets back *wink* lol (at least he better!!...or i'll be sad)
adam comes home soon!! yeiii! can't wait! only 2 years of not seeing him! a week from sunday and margie's getting him at 8 am and hopefully i'll be one of the first to see him. margie's trying not to overwhelm him so there may not be a party, or at least not for a little while because she doesn't think he'll know how to be around use b/c he's been gone for way too long. he'll be fine tho. he has his GED and won't be going back to school. he's going straight to work and is going to work on getting his life together, which is awesome because that's what he needs to do.
linds is on her way home now...should be home aaaaaannnnnny minute now...*crosses fingers* plz no drama plz no drama lol
.........mmmmm yei food....
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